Fuck...........
tomorrow we'll find out if my dad is being made redundant....
He loves his job. He's a teacher at the National Construction College. He gets on so well with the guys, always thinking of new things for them to do, but enjoy at the same time. For example he brought in our old broken lawnmower last week, they fixed it, then managed to do wheelies on it in the carpark.
But three people have to go.
If he does loose it, i honestly don't know what will happen. He knows people, but if he'll be able to get another job straight away.....? And thats not what i'm even the most worried about. It's mum. She is so scared.
I was doing homework on the floor and she sat in the chair, and in a small voice she said 'Kim, what will we do if dad looses his job'
Even now, i am the parent and she is still the child.
God, what if he does, and she gets worse? If she tried it again, another overdose, or worse something like cutting her wrists or drowning herself?! I can't deal with that again! I may be 18 but i need my mum!
A friend of mine said to me i have a lot of inner strength, and i agree with her, i do. But if this happens its going to crack and i won't be able to deal with it on my own.
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