depression

I came home yesterday and my mum was in bed. Its nothing new, she's often is, sometimes more than out of it. Its because of her depression. It makes her tired and gives her really bad migranes.

I dont mind my mum having depression at all. I'm used to it - to me its normal - she's had it since she was young, so all of my life.

I was sitting at the end of her bed near her feet and just talking with her about my day, then i asked her about hers. She'd been to the hospital, where she where she has regualr meetings in the bit which deals with your mental health with the doctors. Just the way she was talking about it made me feel scared, i don't know why, maybe just her tone of voice. So i asked if her depression was getting worse.

She paused for a second then shrugged, said 'Kim, you're old enough to know, because of my depression, it makes me have...bad thoughts sometimes.' the thing is when she's tired she often forgets things. I know all of this, she's told me before, but this time i really thought about what she was saying.

Bad thoughts meant suicidal thoughts.

I had a hard day, i was stressed out and now this. I just felt my eyes go and started crying.

I hear people complain about their mums all the time, and how they don't get on. How they hate them and that they argue all the time.

Trust me, you dont have to worry about how bad your mum's mental health is and if one day you'll have to face life without her.